[A letter to Thomas777, slightly modified for the thread]
I am at a place in my life where I wish I could be Christian very much, but I find it intellectually difficult.
For instance it is not clear to me that Jesus existed, or Pauline Christianity is the same as the Christianity of the Gospels, and so on. These historical questions perplex me and I don't feel competent to say much in these sorts of discussions, but there seems to be much doubt. I sometimes wonder how the details of such an old story can be so important...
But on the other hand the imaginative nature of Christianity evidently seems important and as mentioned by Thomas777 on another forum, Christianity is the inheritance of Westerners. How do you balance the demand for historical and universal truth with the truths of the Western spirit?